So, its 5 past 10 and i have had the best part of a bottle of procecco. It's been a long day, I have been ill. I realised that my profile did not reflect my current situation. I am not living in a beautiful 2 bed flat with my boy, he is an old boy. I have a new one. and a new 1 bed flat to boot! I miss the old life. I would miss my new life if it was not happening.. oh the human condition of wanting what you cant have ey? communication, something I do for a living... learning how to communicate, being good at communication is something I make a living out of! What you dont know is how I fail at this.... on such a huge scale that I have managed to, numerous times, fuck up situations. I wanted so much for the new boy to see that I was worth all the effort! BUT! maybe the old boy was right... I am just to intense! I expect to much!